Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I feel sometimes like I suck at life!!!
Anyone else ever have that feeling? Like you can't do anything right I am talking right down to the simple things like sleeping!!! I can't sleep right!!!!!!!!! I stay up til 4 or 5 am talking to Alex, which isnt healthy for me, and then I sleep until 2 pm, this is wrong fro me!!! I am not some college summer slacker! I am a mom!!!! 22 years old and responsible for another human life. I feel like in order to be everything that she needs I have to change everything about me because ITS ALL WRONG!!!!! And apparently there are people out there who agree with me, I could never do anything rigth for Alex, thats why were not together, I could never do anything right in the military thats why I got passed over for EVERYTHING!!!! I can't even keep up this stupid stupid blog!!! I can't sell my effin bows! I have invested time and money and other peoples money into a hobby that is going NO WHERE!!!!!! Wow I am a failure!